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Helpful Score: 5
A wounded adult tells her story, and if you're thinking it's racy or sexy, you'll be disappointed. Her revealing story often gave me an upset stomach. Sometimes Traci Elizabeth Lord's simplistic writing seemed to have too many cliches but it helped me to believe the story is truly written in her own words. Lord was an abused, molested and neglected child turned insecure teen turned porn star turned drug addict.(While reading the book I wondered what this beautiful woman might have become if she had received proper male affection and real fatherly love?) Some critics of the book doubt Traci's specific memories, details and conversations as a child (especially with her father.) I had no trouble believing her memories. Bad, scary and hurtful memories are often stronger than the good ones. Remarkably, I can remember events and words spoken more than 30 years ago so I didn't doubt Lord's memories. Because they were painful I've moved on but they are always there reminding me of my vulnerability and even by the end of Lord's book, her own vulnerability can be felt. Lord's early memories are fascinating. Through the eyes of a child she witnessed her parents violent relationship and eventual divorce. Her well-intentioned mother couldn't get it right and early in the book I wanted her mother's boyfriend to rot in hell. Readers learn about her short-lived life in the sexually explicit porn world but I don't think she wrote the book to impress anyone with that, she wrote the book to heal her childhood wounds.
