Leaving Isn't the Hardest Thing Essays Author:Lauren Hough As an adult, Lauren Hough has had many identities: an airman in the U.S. Air Force, a cable guy, a bouncer at a gay club. As a child, however, she had none. Growing up as a member of the infamous cult The Children of God, Hough had her own self robbed from her. The cult took her all over the globe -- to Germany, Japan, Texas, Ecuador -- but it w... more »asn't until her mother finally walked away that Lauren understood she could have a life beyond "The Family."
Along the way, she's loaded up her car and started over, trading one life for the next. She's taken pilgrimages to the sights of her youth, been kept in solitary confinement, dated a lot of women, dabbled in drugs, and eventually found herself as what she always wanted to be: a writer. Here, as she sweeps through the underbelly of America -- relying on friends, family, and strangers alike -- she begins to excavate a new identity even as her past continues to trail her and color her world, relationships, and perceptions of self.