Jay's Journal Author:Anonymous, Beatrice Sparks (Editor) A withdrawn adolescent boy's initiation into the occult draws him ever deeper into the bizarre world of witchcraft, voodoo, and satanism until, at age sixteen, he commits suicide — December 18 - Things are going from worse to impossible. I'm fighting a losing battle... — Jay thought he could handle anything. The first time he took drugs wa... more »s for fun. But what started as an escape quickly spiraled into a haze of addiction. That was just the beginning of the dangerous path that ultimately led Jay to take his own life.