This started out a bit slowly for me. The author starts out with his memories of when he was four years old and his older brother went missing. As he grows older, he learns more about what happened and you learn of his emotions and how his family reacted to this terrible tragedy. As I read further, this story gripped me and my heart ached for this family, but especially this four-year-old child who thought it was all his fault. Excellent read, but devastated that this family had to endure this horrible event.