Ain't Understandin' Mellow Author:Michelle Davis Angelina is a survivor of childhood molestation and scorn. With no guidance as she became a woman, she sought solace and comfort in the arms of equally dysfunctional men. Low self-esteem propels her into a pattern of destructive relationships where she is both blessed and burdened by the birth of four children. The love she has for them becomes ... more »the blessing, providing the strength she needs not only to endure, but to overcome. After trials and a series of mistakes, the light bulb finally comes on. She understands that being a victim as a child should not make her live life being victimized. It should make her a survivor. She learns she has two choices in life; she could either sink under the weight of despair, or she could swim to shore and start over. She chooses to swim. She looks back to her past to understand the present, determined to break the cycles that threaten her and her children's future. Whatever she decides to do in life, she knows one thing is certain; understanding who she is and where she wants to be brings placidity that is unsurpassed by anything - including fairy tale images of love. Understanding is serene. It is calming and full of bliss. For the first time in her life, understanding is mellow.« less